Finally, I’m back! I’ve been in a funk lately and I know I really need to get back on track. I was feeling down, tired and moody, probably because of all the junk I’ve been eating. It’s a vicious cycle. What I eat makes me tired, and when I’m tired, I go for what’s convenient (and probably not so healthy), and on and on it goes.
I suppose it’s all part of the journey. There are triumphs and there are struggles. Blah blah blah. So I’m acknowledging this problem and correcting it. Now.
I’ve noticed that I’ve been moodier than usual and very irritable, and I know it’s because of the type of nutrition I’m providing my body. I am a believer that there is a major link between what you put in your body and how it affects your mental health. I believe nutrition is the nature’s medicine. But you have to care and you have to have control. And you have to care TO have control. It’s a constant effort with no time limit.
Ever since I returned from my travels, I’ve pretty much fallen off the wagon with my diet. Coming back after a couple of weeks, I feel out of my element and disoriented for a while. It takes a bit for me to get back to normal. Getting over jet lag is a major drag in itself, but I also came home with a suitcase full of dirty clothes and to a messy apartment. The fridge was empty with a few containers of old food. I just don’t have the energy to get the laundry done, go grocery shopping, and prep food for the week. Knowing I have all these things to do, I want to do it even less. I felt like I needed another vacation. Sad, I know. I suck at being an adult. Anyways, I felt off for a while. As a result, I don’t prep as well as I should and I go to work with no lunch and wrinkly clothes. I try to be easier on myself during this adjustment period, maybe too easy, and allow myself to buy breakfast and lunch, and maybe some snacks from the vending machine. It’s a very slippery slope. And before I know it, a couple of weeks has gone by and nothing has really changed… And enough is enough. So it’s time to get back to it.
I’ve been struggling to get back the motivation and determination. It does not help that it’s getting colder and all I want to do is cuddle up on the couch with a big bowl of candy and watch Hocus Pocus. I do like the cold to an extent, but it definitely does not help with getting back the motivation to go to the gym.
So instead, my focus goes to getting back to eating healthy. I’ll work in the gym later. I started cutting back on sugar yesterday. It’s ridiculous how much of a difference it makes with my hunger and cravings when I choose not to eat white starches and sugary junk.
Yesterday was only the second day, but I could feel that my cravings for junk had diminished significantly. I had a smaller craving, but it was much easier to handle. I didn’t feel the need to snack so much. I was satisfied with my lunch of curry chicken with vegetables. I also did not have the usual mid-afternoon crash.
There was a work thing today and I may have allowed myself to indulge in a cupcake…, but I made a pretty healthy dinner: a taco salad with ground beef, pico de gallo, guacomole, beans, cheese, sour cream, and lettuce. I don’t think I could ever cut out dairy but I can do without the rice. Very delicious and satisfying.
After going through this cycle again, I realize how detrimental emotional eating can be, and how badly it still affects me. Once I allow food to provide me comfort, it’s difficult to break up this unhealthy relationship. But I need to remember how I feel when I put the right things in my body. I feel better and I feel in control, and even a little more confident because I am doing something that is good for me. The losing weight part is not so bad either.
And so the journey continues…
To keep the body in good health is a duty… Otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear. -Buddha